EYES WIDE SHUT

I always thought that was a contradiction in terms (obviously) but lately I’ve had a rethink after reading a woman’s perspective on the commitment of Love online a few days ago.
People who know me used to tell me never to lie about how I felt because my eyes always gave the game away; if I was ecstatic they glistened with excitement and the brown was almost translucent, if I was content they were a warmer shade of brown and drew a picture of restive pleasure, if I was sad and/or angry they became a darker brown and left my entire face looking lifeless. When I think about it now, I say to myself “Is that the wideness of eye that displays the emotions and wellbeing of heart in it’s changes?”….hmmmm
So how can my eyes remain wide and shut at the same time, I wonder? L.O.V.E! Simply put
This woman postulated on the female mind’s ability to live many lifetimes in little moments with her eyes wide shut; experiencing the excitement, the laughter, the contentment, the pain and the passion of love with a gullible heart that automatically insulates itself from all extremes of emotion in order to savor each of these moments. She enthuses about how our desire to love and be loved almost makes us blind to the possibility and/or reality of the painful part that might leave our hearts cold and our eyes lifeless, simple because we want to enjoy the euphoria of the times of passion, excitement and contentment for a little longer. So we live our lives savoring those moments when we willingly have our ‘eyes wide shut’ so we can feel alive even for a moment.
It reminds me that I can be the daughter that loves and honors her mother no matter how crabby she gets as she ages, I can be the sister who loves regardless of whether your siblings appreciate or return the favor, I can be the mother who loves her children unconditionally no matter how good or badly they behave, I can be a friend who is there no matter what regardless of whether I’m left to stand alone in my times of need, I can be the lover who wears her heart on her sleeves and gives her love freely to the one she shares her life with, no holds barred…….it means I can open my eyes to every possibility of love, while shutting out the fear that drives one to go through life without having experienced any of these emotions even if they lasted only for a season.
With Eyes Wide Shut…..I LIKE IT!!!